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August 5th, 2004

HOW & WHY NOT TO LOVE

Posted by pchangirl at 11:28 AM on August 5, 2004.

If you have to love, don't. Especially if the one you're going to love doesn't love you back. Unrequited love must not fill a space in your existence. Unrequited love sucks, hurts and kills. If you find yourself thinking about someone and his sweetness, although you know he's naturally sweet to all girls, and his sweetness to you doesn't mean anything, then don't think about him. Don't be too assuming that he's checking out on you is a sign that he has a thing for you. Don't read between the lines of the sweet text messages he sent to you. Don't dwell on the memories that you had with him because most definitely, he is not dwelling on them, either. Don't fall for him. To fall in love with him will be an awful blow to your vulnerable emotions because surprise! surprise! he wouldn't reciprocate the feelings. He is just sweet, remember?

If you think you're 'crushing' on someone who seems to be having a thing for your friend, and your friend seems to be 'crushing' on the guy too big time, take the backseat. Don't squeeze yourself in the picture. Boogie out the scene that is designated for only the two of them. At this point, don't take the risk of falling for the guy in hope that maybe it's not your friend he's attracted with, but you. That won't work. Assuming that someone loves you is the most stupid reason for propelling oneself to love. So don't assume. And if it happens that you really don't, but you have the urge to love the guy anyway, because whoa, the guy is a catch, try your hardest to control the feeling. The worst thing that can happen is finding yourself very heartbroken from seeing your friend and your prospect together. If you are totally 'crushing' on a classmate, and you're nothing but his friend who buys tickets from his organization just for his sake, then for the love of yourself, bop yourself until you realize that you have to let go of that classmate. Don't skip class because you're afraid you're going to see the two of them sitting beside each other. Look at the guy in a different light. Say, notice how he doesn't match up to your ideal guy standard anyway because he dresses so lousily-something like that. For pete's sake, it's just a crush you say. But dear, more often than not, crush leads to love. Better stop now than endure a thousandfold pain later.

Love is the sweetest thing, I know. It's the greatest feeling. That is, if the one you love loves you back. There can't be anything better than that. But if the situation is wherein you're falling for someone who just considers you as a friend, that's a different story. As much as possible, evade from those heart-wrenching situations. Love is hard to control, but try anyway. Give your best shot at falling out of love or not falling at all. You're lucky if you detect the absurdity and the pain of unrequited love right away because it spares you from going through a lot of hell. All you have to do is simply occupy yourself with other things. Have fun with your life. You will fall soon and this time, you will not get hurt, because he will reciprocate the feelings. It will not be now, but it will come in due time.

Love is all about sacrifice, giving one's self freely, with no strings attached, you say. Hell, I know that. I know love is supposed to work that way. Love is really supposed to hurt, but that's what makes love love. But this is my stand. And I know you respect that. Love has pained me so much to actually believe that it is better to have not loved at all. It's so easy to think about love, to talk about love. But it's not always easy to recognize love... even when we already hold it in our hands.

Nooooo! I didnt wrote this! hehehe. just from a random forward. I just felt like posting it here. I broke up with someone just a few weeks ago and i want him back already... pero i dont know how :( kasi meron nanligaw sakin....sobrang cute nya...and just the things gets better between us... a few days ago.. nalaman ko na may GF na pala siya.. :( hay... bwisit talaga.... sometime ko na lang continue! need to review eh!! hehehe^_^

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July 2nd, 2004

Bakit?

Posted by pchangirl at 11:10 AM on July 2, 2004.

Bakit ang isang special na person na pilit mong kinalimutan, at nakalimutan na kahit sobrang sakit, kapag biglang pinaalala saio ng kaibigan mo, gusto mong ibalik ang nakaraan?

Ha!?

I am sooo pathetic. I still love "him". Argh. mamatay na sana xa!! bwisit!!!!!!!

neweis we were able to watch spiderman 2 today, kasi maaga kami nadismiss!!^_^ hehehe! ang wafuuu ni tobeee!!!! better than the last one :D

found this somewhere.. kris quino's blog.. grabe... kahit sa pagsulat sobrang maarte siya...

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June 4th, 2004

...finding who i really am

Posted by pchangirl at 01:10 PM on June 4, 2004.

i know that i really had a hectic life..but maybe if i really treat everything simple and weigh my priorities everything will be great. as of now, i'm still questioning some things that is happening to me, why i have to be here, why i have to do something that i don't want to do, why i still need to stay and never quit...so many questions bothering me and finding the answers are really hard to see.

too much studying or workaholic? freak or insane? exact or exagerated? contented or insecure? all i know is that sometimes i think that there's wrong with my life and sometimes my belief that God has good plans for me fade. i thought that something worthwhile should happen to me...

i've been away for quite long...nearly a month in Aussie...being what? waitress, camera operator, student assistant, volunteer, cell member, babysitter, photographer, customer, and many more..I worked there cause my mom cant afford my tuitions and also for her health needs as well..i'm so worried i might just see her dead in the next morning :(

i can't believe everything happens so fast...i've become a very different person, before when i left the philippines i thought i was just a broken hearted person because the guy that i like didn't gave me the chance to be his girl, i thought i was so insane so i left, i think the will to study is just an option..

i would be very honest, i left my country to forget, to forget him
(Maybe he knows, maybe not but i do believe he is the last person that i remember before i stepped on the plane, that somehow he wil send me a text message, saying even goodluck..but then oh..maybe i just expect a lot...or maybe i thought that things that happen in the movies will happen to me as well)

but as i've said before, i 'm a different person now...every decision that i made lies in me, my faith grew, but sometimes i still have the tendency to fall on Satan's trap..but i will make myself strong and surpass all of this..i hope...

today was my first day..still the same old classmates...hehehe^_^ i miss them so much! some people are missing though... erwin is working for his other half.. and others di ko na alam..hehehehehe^_^_^_^_^_^

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June 3rd, 2004

hehe

Posted by pchangirl at 11:28 AM on June 3, 2004.

hehehe...we just returned from aussie. pics will be up soon^_^ it was nice experience.... especially the food!! hehehe.. gtg muna, i need to prepare my school things.. hehehe.. tomorrow will be my first day..i missed 2 weeks >_<

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May 10th, 2004

what is a boyfriend?

Posted by pchangirl at 10:56 AM on May 10, 2004.

yesterday was mother's day..hehehe nothing speacial happen..we just ate...that's it....hehe^_^

about the topic..it feels weird...sometimes i feel i need a boyfriend..but sometimes...not. i really dont know why i feel i need one...maybe because i'm getting older..but sometimes i get annoyed at guys...it's just really hard to understand what they think.. sometimes they are serious, but most of the time they are not.. sometimes it's just sex appeal and sometimes it's true love...hehehe one of those guys i'm talking about is dexter..i dont really understand what he thinks about me...i was really hoping he was serious on what he told me before..i'm still waiting...i want to give him time.. pero di ko lang matanggap.. if ever he was not really serious about it... i'm a human and i also get hurt... :( i'm not someone to just experiment about with people's feelings.

hehehe..here's a piccie from last saturday. we went to my cousin's bday..sorry if i look hilarious there!^_^

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